After wallowing for a little while about how rubbish my eggs are I came to realise that in fact my IVF cycle didnt fail. The IVF was never about making a baby, it was about putting an end to the last two years of TTC obsessions and letting me move on. Seeing the consultant set me back a little until I realised that though a new life was not conceived in the form of a little developing embryo, I did conceive a new life for myself and it was a long time coming. I temporarily forgot my little burst of creativity the day that I found out it hadnt worked. A lot happened that day and I turned around as a person.
The last few months have been a real development phase as all the parts of this new life start to form. However, instead of the formation of tiny bud like limbs, a life supporting placenta and a small but perfect beating heart, there has been the creation of a new venture, a website, an associated blog, and I have signed up to a particularly challenging and demanding course on Higher Dimensional Healing.
This course will compliment the work I have done so far with crystal healing and meditation and will require strict discipline in the form of daily meditation and a great deal of study. It is the leap that I have been needing to take and finally the time is right. It starts in march and lasts six months, ending on the 28th August which coincidentally would have been my due date if we had have got pregnant!
I hope to blossom over these nine months and to give birth to a new person who is ready and equipped to deal with the world. This blog may go a little quiet in the meantime, but you never know, through rebalancing myself, things just may fall into place!
