Well, I have been doing my visualisations everyday and had accupuncture at the beginning of last week. All was looking good, we made good attempts 6 days in a row and I was feeling positive and then...work exhausted me, ahhh. By the end of last week I was so tired that I barely had the energy for baby dancing so its not surprising that all my fertile signs dissapeared and I failed to ovulate..again.
Goodness me. I am sooo sick of work taking over my life and essentially making me infertile. Since I then didnt know when things would start up again and I was so tired we didnt try over the weekend. Then suddenly, tuesday, a slight sign, we gave it a go and my body spontaneously ovulated second time around. Unfortunatey it means despite trying 6 days in a row when I thought I was fertile, it didnt happen, it then got sprung upon me and we only gave it a single attempt.
Im not feeling so positive now. This has happened three months in a row now. In fact, im even considering taking a few days off during my next cycle when its that crucial ovulation time to make sure im relaxed and give myself a chance. Or is that too much pressure? Im just plain fed up and if state of mind has anything to do with things then im well aware that im killing my chances. The only positivity I can grasp on to is that if I ovulated on tuesday then thats closer to the full moon eclipse on saturday which is supposed to be favourable for virgos trying to conceive. As they say, it only takes a single sperm blah blah blah.....
Thursday 24 June 2010
Thursday 10 June 2010
Back from holiday :-) and back to work :-(
So back from holiday yesterday and hoping that this month will be positive. AF arrived on the first day (great start) but I'm hoping with some positive thinking this month will be better.
I have had a read of my hypnofertility book and have some visualisations to do everyday which I started while I was away. Im sure other people lying by the pool would think im barmy if they knew that I was visualising sperm swimming through my cervix and watching in my mind while an egg was released from my ovary! Apparently the more that you go through these visualisation while in a deeply relaxed state then the subconscious gets comfortable with the idea that it will happen and all this helps prepare the mind for the fact that you will be pregnant and will help to remove any psychological blocks.
Im hoping that the fact that I started these visualisations while on holiday means that as I continue them I will take my mind back to being nice and relaxed while lying in the sun by the pool on holiday. Now that im back at work, I can already feel the stress levels rising but im seeing my acupuncturist on monday so hoping that that will also help. Im due to ovulate middle of next week but know that for the last two cycles ovulation has been delayed which I can only attribute to a particularly stressful time at work during those days. So I must remain calm and detached from work until at least the end of next week and make sure that im focusing positive energy on myself and not expending it all on work. So much easier said than done!!!
On a positive note, my horroscope says that the eclispse towards the end of this month is a good sign for pregnancy for virgos woohoo!!! It says..
Fingers crossed, perhaps the stars are on my side this month!!! If you havent read Susan Miller's horroscopes I highly recommend it http://www.astrologyzone.com/
I have had a read of my hypnofertility book and have some visualisations to do everyday which I started while I was away. Im sure other people lying by the pool would think im barmy if they knew that I was visualising sperm swimming through my cervix and watching in my mind while an egg was released from my ovary! Apparently the more that you go through these visualisation while in a deeply relaxed state then the subconscious gets comfortable with the idea that it will happen and all this helps prepare the mind for the fact that you will be pregnant and will help to remove any psychological blocks.
Im hoping that the fact that I started these visualisations while on holiday means that as I continue them I will take my mind back to being nice and relaxed while lying in the sun by the pool on holiday. Now that im back at work, I can already feel the stress levels rising but im seeing my acupuncturist on monday so hoping that that will also help. Im due to ovulate middle of next week but know that for the last two cycles ovulation has been delayed which I can only attribute to a particularly stressful time at work during those days. So I must remain calm and detached from work until at least the end of next week and make sure that im focusing positive energy on myself and not expending it all on work. So much easier said than done!!!
On a positive note, my horroscope says that the eclispse towards the end of this month is a good sign for pregnancy for virgos woohoo!!! It says..
Now we come to the matter of the full moon lunar eclipse in Capricorn at 5 degrees, due June 26 (operative for five days on either side of this date). This eclipse will fall in your house of true love and bring a matter of the heart to culmination. This same area of the chart rules pregnancy, birth and the care of children. If you have hoped for a baby, this eclipse may bring a child. If you are not ready, you will have to be very careful because a pregnancy could occur
Fingers crossed, perhaps the stars are on my side this month!!! If you havent read Susan Miller's horroscopes I highly recommend it http://www.astrologyzone.com/
Tuesday 1 June 2010
My hypnofertility book arrived!!!
I do get stupidly excited about each new avenue I try in the quest of TTC. When I heard the postman drop something heavy through the letterbox this morning I squealed and ran downstairs!
I have now read the first few chapters and there are several exercises for both of us to do to get you thinking about what your mind is actually thinking. They are stupid things that I didnt realise I thought about but for example...
can I carry on doing my job when im pregnant (I work on a lot of contaminated land sites)?
what mess will I come back to at work after a years maternity leave?
will it upset my sister in law who had a failed attempt at IVF?
will my mother in law interfere the way she did over our wedding (religion issues)?
will I look like a sack of potatoes with a bump as im far heavier than I would like?
will my depression return with having a baby? !!!!!!!
Oh my goodness, they all sound so stupid but I never realised I actually think about this stuff and I could actually be psychologically blocking myself getting pregnant !!! Do I sound like a madwoman???
We are going on holiday this evening so I may take the book with us and work through it a little more whilst sitting by the pool - nice!! I shall update you (well all one of you so far!!) when im back next week.
I have now read the first few chapters and there are several exercises for both of us to do to get you thinking about what your mind is actually thinking. They are stupid things that I didnt realise I thought about but for example...
can I carry on doing my job when im pregnant (I work on a lot of contaminated land sites)?
what mess will I come back to at work after a years maternity leave?
will it upset my sister in law who had a failed attempt at IVF?
will my mother in law interfere the way she did over our wedding (religion issues)?
will I look like a sack of potatoes with a bump as im far heavier than I would like?
will my depression return with having a baby? !!!!!!!
Oh my goodness, they all sound so stupid but I never realised I actually think about this stuff and I could actually be psychologically blocking myself getting pregnant !!! Do I sound like a madwoman???
We are going on holiday this evening so I may take the book with us and work through it a little more whilst sitting by the pool - nice!! I shall update you (well all one of you so far!!) when im back next week.
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