Sunday, 15 January 2012

Never though I would be happy to see BFN!

How stupid does that sound?!?!

Of all the times I have done a pregancy test and longed for the elusive BFP (big fat positive) to now actually want to see a negatives seems a bit obsurd.

However, I would just like my body to return to normal. Its been 4 weeks now since the main bit of the miscarriage and for a while there my body was holding onto the pregnancy hormone despite all the tissue having been passed. For around 10 days my HCG levels were stuck around 1200 and it was only just before New Year that they finally started to drop to 350. The following week was 81 and this week is 10. Below 5 is considered not pregnant and so im almost there and hopefully my body will start to kick itself back into its normal routine. I should now see a negative on a pregnancy test, though I cant bring myself to waste another just to prove it, he he!

We are going on a much needed holiday on friday to a lovely all inclusive 5 start resort in Mexico where all rooms have their own jacuzzi. It was our consolation for IVF not working and we even splashed out and upgraded to a swim up room on the ground floor with direct access to a 'lazy river'. Then we got pregnant and thought, wow, now we get both the baby and the fantastic holiday!!! Now we just get the holiday but at least I can enjoy the cocktails!!!!!!!

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