Feeling positive!!

Well, its been a while. Our fertility specialist appointment is only a fortnight away now. I have had all of my repeat tests and they are all fine. The best result was my smear as I had previously had some dodgy ones following by a small operation to remove a slice of the cervix and now finally I have had enough clear results at 6 -12 month intervals that I now dont need one for 3 years!

Despite having a horrible time at work last week and being in tears several times, my body is actually doing what it should! I went for some crystal healing last thursday as I was feeling abit run down and my friend Andy was really impressed that all my energy centres were spot on! He dowsed up some really high energy crystals for me and even he was quite impressed.

I also started getting fertile signs from cd13, which I really didnt expect seeing that I wasnt coping with work. How was my body doing this?? Every other month, it only takes a little bit of stress and ovulation is delayed, but this month it was looking good. Signs continued and monday(yesterday) I had signs that I had done it - ovulation on cd17!!! Whoa!! Something, somewhere, is routing for me! I was booked in for accupuncture that same day which means my post ovulation energy should be boosted. This is where I was also struggling in trying to increase the length of this second phase. It was all working perfectly and im feeling really positive that perhaps some greater force is helping me along. All my appointments have been well timed and couldnt have been pre-arranged like that as my cycles are so unpredictable.

I have also been signed off work for a week due to chest pains. Im sure its all down to stress but amazed that actually my energy centres were doing fine. I have had my heart checked out and its fine but gp advised some time off work. I started to think that perhaps these pains are a sign that this month I really need to have a bit of time out. They were better over the weekend until I started talking about work on sunday. I went to work yesterday but they were really painful so I thought; you know what im going to be selfish and take some time off to help these pains go away. It also means I will be more relaxed while, hopefully, a little fertilised egg is making its way down to its new home. That would be so fantastic if it is. Every spare minute and particularly as im going to sleep I repeat over and over again 'Im pregnant, Im pregnant, Im pregnant'. Im really convincing myself that this is all part of some divine/grand plan. My period will be due just before our referral appointment so I will keep with the positive thought and enjoy the rest of the week relaxing and not being at work!!